Healing Strong Emotions

This week I was driving home from work one evening and I saw a huge cloud that looked to me like one of those gigantic waves that occasionally come along when I am at the beach. I am not a great swimmer so I am not really fond of those waves. But my husband taught me that when I see one of those waves coming, to just swim into the wave and not let it come crashing against me. My Angels seem to tell me that it was the same way with my life. When a giant wave presents itself, just swim into it. I was curious about the message since everything seemed to be going well. I wondered what the wave could mean.

In a couple of days I had my answer. Circumstances around me caused me to have to face some difficult emotions and I realized that my Angels did not want me to resist these emotions. Whether the emotion is a good feeling, like joy or one that makes us feel bad, like fear or anger, every emotion comes to us as a life experience. I have always been one to resist those "bad" emotions, stuffing them down and replacing them with the "good" emotions, but I think what the Angels were trying to get me to understand is that every emotion deserves our conscious attention. When an emotion like anger, or fear or grief comes to us like a wave, it is important to allow that emotion to run its course, give ourselves full permission to feel that emotion and thank it for its gift to us. Swim right into it.

The important part is that when we allow the emotion to happen and we breathe into it and feel it to its full extent, that emotion will run its course and then, like a wave, it will flow on by and eventually flow away from us. When we resist that emotion out of guilt or fear then it goes somewhere deep inside and eventually will come back at a later time. If we keep that emotion stuffed down inside then we will never heal.

Around the same time I got this message I was asked to contact the soul of someone who had fallen into a coma after a relatively minor medical procedure. When I contacted his soul I realized that he was feeling some very strong emotions which he had not allowed himself to feel. His soul was hiding out in this coma and was in a happy place, not wanting to return to conscious life, but I encouraged him to allow his emotions to surface and feel them to the fullest. Breathe into those emotions and welcome them. Then, as he welcomed them, he could allow them to pass. Upon relating my experience to my contact person, I was told that he had indeed awakened for a period of time close to the time of my contact with him. In any healing work, we have to realize that we cannot cross the will of any soul, and even though we had dealt with some very strong emotions during our visit together, it was ultimately his decision whether to live or die.

Also during this time period I contacted a soul who was still in the womb and was soon to go back to the other side. The soul was very angry that she was not going to be born but I felt the anger was deeper than that. She was trying so hard to make it to birth, however this birth was not to be. I felt that in a previous life this soul had perhaps lost or aborted a child and now was feeling the other side of those emotions from the standpoint of a soul who was not going to make it to birth. After contacting her twice, the second time her anger had subsided a great deal, as she had possibly dealt with her emotions surrounding the crisis.

Strong emotions that remain unresolved always come back until they are completely felt and allowed to surface. Only when they are acknowledged can the person feeling the strong emotions heal and move on. Let us thank our souls for the experience of life and the emotions tied to the events in our lives. If we have events that present themselves over and over it is a good sign that we have not dealt with the emotions surrounding those recurring events. It is important to breathe into those emotions and pay attention to how those emotions feel. Totally acknowledge the feelings surrounding major events in our lives and feel the emotions tied to those events. Only then can we begin to resolve issues that seem to keep resurfacing.

When our hearts are ready to heal, events will transpire to bring to the surface long forgotten emotions. Acknowledge the feelings surrounding those happenings, feel those emotions to the fullest, breathe into your soul the fullness of the emotions, and then release the emotions like a wave flowing away from your experience. As those emotions are released, you will experience a new level of joy you have never known. Healing can then begin.

Sometimes releasing strong emotions requires support from others. Don't hesitate to involve friends, family, or perhaps a professional in your healing process. It is worth the effort.

The House Plant with a Dream

I have this little game I like to play with the Angels. I will breathe in and out a little, and then focus on something that comes into my field of vision. And then I will ask the Angels for a message pertaining to whatever has jumped out at me or presented itself to me. One time I wrote an entire blog about the pen that was sitting on my desk. The Angels can give me a message about anything, and it's always something relevant.

So last week I was doing a different job at the Post Office where I work. I had a couple of occasions when I was in between tasks and so I took a minute and played this game. I ended up with three separate blogs just on small messages from the Angels relating to something I looked at or something that came to my mind. This is the first one I have had time to write about.

This particular message from the Angels came to me when I happened to look at the plant that was sitting on the desk in front of me. There are several small plants done up in an arrangement and my focus happened to land on this plant. It seems to be flourishing and enjoying its environment. There is a window for light and also those fluorescent lights that grace most businesses. They say plants love them. And it gets water once a week or so. All of its needs are taken care of. The first thing I wondered was whether it sensed the energy of the different postal patrons that happen in and out of the office. Some are getting passports as they plan for trips overseas, some are ordering keys for apartments they have just moved into. Some are complaining. The energy of each customer is unique. I am wondering if the plants can sense the urgency of the needs of these customers. I am also wondering if the life in the plant helps to soothe the energy when it gets tense.

The next question that comes to mind is that I wonder whether the plant ever looks outside and dreams of a life free from the confines of its container. In the pot that is its home, all its needs are met. However, it is a bit snug in its small container. I wonder if it ever dreams of a life in, perhaps a rain forest, free from containment, free from the boundaries of a pot, experiencing real rain and real sunshine.

However, in a rain forest, there would be new challenges. There would be the danger of being eaten by animals. There would be the danger of bugs, or worms, or drought. Perhaps a team of large heavy equipment could one day show up and level its home. But it would be free. It would experience the exhilaration of real live sunshine and real live rain. I remember my house plant that has lived its entire life from inside a store window until I placed it in front of my window, where it lived for several years, until this year when the weather got warm, I decided to place it outside for the summer. And for the first time in the five or six years of owning this plant, it bloomed these wonderful purple flowers. I believe it was the plant's way of thanking me for the experience of real life.

I guess in a way sometimes I feel like a plant in a pot. I go to work every day at the Post Office, and I dream of someday being able to make a living doing what I love to do, writing, or doing journeys or teaching others the things I have learned about the unseen world. But that would come with its own challenges. I guess my lesson for today from the Angels is that just like the plant graces the Post Office with its presence and perhaps lifts the energy there as it transmutes the energy from the variety of customers there, I too have my job there. Maybe one day I will find myself transplanted into a different environment, but until then I will bloom where I am planted. I will thank the Angels for providing me with a way to finance my life and I will write and journey and teach others the things I have learned and perhaps one day I will find myself transplanted into a different environment. Either way it is all good.

Unconditional Love

Recently I have been thinking about unconditional love and what it really is. A friend of mine received a message from a psychic last year that this year she would come to know unconditional love. She was hoping it would mean that she would finally meet the man of her dreams and find the love she has been searching for. Recently she told me that there were only a few months left in the year and she was still waiting for that to occur.

I began to contemplate what unconditional love really is and if, in fact, it could mean romantic love. Unconditional love means a love that loves you no matter what. It loves you if you are fat, skinny, mean, kind, pretty, ugly, poor, rich, or any other of the multitude of qualities I could think of mentioning. That is a good idea, but I am not so sure it is a good idea for a romantic partner. What if the person you love is a serial killer? Unconditional love means you love them anyway? What if the person beat you up or cheated on you or robbed banks or embezzled funds from the company he worked for? Or what if he just sat in front of the TV all day and did not ever get up and go to work or clean himself up or help around the house? What if he just yelled all the time or what if he was nice sometimes but other times he treated you bad? When do you say, okay, unconditional love draws the line here?

I think unconditional love happens between a person and their Source, their idea of who or what God is. I think God loves us unconditionally. I also think our pets love us unconditionally, but then again, if we neglect them, don't feed them, beat them, do they still love us? Unconditional love says they do. I am not so sure. I think unconditional love can happen between a parent and a child, but not necessarily. Sometimes there are issues there as well. Behavior then, is a key factor. But how about unconditional love for oneself?

Do we love ourselves even when we make mistakes? Even when we are not young enough, or pretty enough, or thin enough, or smart enough, or funny enough? I think in order to find a love between myself and another person, I have to love myself enough to believe it is possible. I have to love myself to believe that I deserve love, that I am valuable enough that someone could love me. And that I love myself enough to realize that if a person is not treating me with enough respect or kindness, then it is okay to end that relationship. And I have to love myself enough to be okay with or without another person to validate me, to make me feel like I am okay.

We all have within ourselves all the unconditional love we could possibly need. That is because all we need we really do have within ourselves. We just have to access that part of ourselves and tap into that part of us that is inside that is love. And when we have accessed that part of ourselves and we really love ourselves enough to be okay with or without that special someone, then we will draw to ourselves like a magnet that love from another person. In other words, if you want love in your life, then be love. Love others, love yourself. Love the trees and the grass and the birds and the flowers. Love those extra five pounds you just can't get rid of. Love that old couch in the living room that is past its prime. Love the pillows that cushion your head as you sleep. Send love to everything around you. Pretty soon you will feel so much love in your life that you can't help but attract it. And if you do, you will recognize that true feeling of love when it comes. And you will recognize when it is not love.

Even my computer works better when I send it loving energy. The people around me respond to me much better when I come from a place of love within my heart. The sun shines brighter, the grass is greener. I don't notice so much when there are things that are less than loving going on around me. That is unconditional love. And it only comes from that place inside of us that is connected to that place where love originates.

And to my friend who is looking for love, you don't have to look far. It is within you.

Honestly!!

The other day I wrote a blog about masks, and I was relating what the Angels seemed to be telling me about being real. I always thought I was real, but I was made aware of the fact that sometimes I do hide certain aspects of myself from others, and maybe even from myself. I have been working on letting people know who or what I am about, even if I may be ridiculed or ostracized.

In a way being myself has something to do with telling the truth, to myself, and others. I have never been very good at lying, even to the point of telling people about surprise parties and stuff like that. I am just no good at it. So it was no surprise when I received a message from the Angels that one of my missions in life was honesty. The message however, was a little more specific. The message said that I would be coming in contact with someone who was having difficulty with telling the truth about something, and I was to encourage them to be honest.

The message came to me on Sunday, and as I was driving home that evening from the gathering in which I received the message, a possum crossed the road in front of me. How perfect. Possums are known for their habit of playing dead when confronted with danger. "Playing Possum" has always meant pretending to be something other than what you are. In other words, being dishonest. So the message was confirmed. Okay. My first thought was, is someone lying to me? Am I going to discover that someone is hiding something from me? A couple of situations with acquaintances came to mind. However, as it has turned out, the Angels must have gotten the message out to everyone else's Angels whose charges were having trouble with honesty or having secrets that I was available for service. The very next day I was approached three different times with three different situations in which I was given the opportunity to tell acquaintances that it is best to be honest.

All of the issues had to do with keeping secrets. What I have learned from these three separate scenarios is this. Honesty is best, if it is in the best interests of everyone involved. I think that if what you do in secret can't be shouted from the housetops without someone being hurt, then you probably shouldn't be doing it. I think that the cardinal rule of the Universe is love. Is what you are doing or saying the loving thing to do for everyone involved? I think God is pretty much okay with our choices, no matter what they are, as long as no one has the potential for getting hurt. I know that I have made difficult decisions in my life which did hurt others, and I regret causing hurt to others to make changes in my life. However, in the short term the hurt feelings were small compared to the damage that would have been done if no changes had been made. I always try to proclaim to the Universe that any decisions I make are the best ones for everyone involved, even if it is not apparent at the moment. I can't say that I have always made the right choices, but in hindsight we often see how our choices affected others when we had no real idea at the moment.

In some cases, telling the truth is only hurtful and is best kept a secret. I remember one of the most hurtful things that happened to me as a teenager was an incident in which I was in youth group at church and our leader wanted us to go around to each other and confess to each other if we had any malice in our heart toward each other or any secrets. One of the boys in the group came up to me and told me that he resented me because his parents were always trying to get him to date me. He held this grudge that I had no idea about. Looking back I think I would have been okay not to have known that he held a grudge against me for something I had no idea about. Always think about the other person and how telling the truth is going to affect them. Make the decision to be real and to be truthful and honest from here on out, but you have a secret that may cause more harm than good to be revealed, then for goodness sake, keep it to yourself.

There is a verse in the Bible that says.. everything whispered in secret will eventually be shouted from the housetops. This is an encouragement to be real. Never let your actions hurt someone else. If there needs to be a change that may cause hurt to the other person, be honest and talk about it. Sometimes staying in a relationship because you don't want to hurt the other person is more hurtful than being honest and saying the truth. I would not want to be in relationship with someone who stayed in it just because he or she was afraid of hurting me. However, things can be said in such a way to lessen the pain.

Let's all learn to be real with each other, and as long as being honest is not going to hurt someone unnecessarily,then be honest. Let all we do be done in love.

Seeing Through A Foggy Windshield

I was talking to a friend about a reading she had received over a year ago by a trusted friend of mine. In the reading, she was told that in the coming year she would come to know unconditional love. She told me that there were only four months left in this year and she was still waiting.

This brought up some points I thought worth mentioning. Yes, I, too, sometimes give people messages and I understand that sometimes what I say may not happen exactly the way I thought or the recipient thought. Sometimes I could be wrong. Sometimes others that give messages could be wrong. Sometimes maybe what I say and what the recipient hears could be two different things. Maybe I will get a message through a picture of some sort and I may think it means one thing but it really means something else. Interpretation of the messages we get is sometimes the problem. I was watching "Medium" a couple of nights ago and the woman in the TV show had a dream which is how she normally gets her messages and she thought it meant one thing but it really meant something else. In the end one of her friends almost died. However, there was resolution in the end. Sometimes maybe Spirit wants us to get it wrong so we can experience certain things or that certain things can transpire to teach us something or lead us in a direction we had not considered. Yesterday I received the message that sometimes my vision gets cloudy like a windshield when it is raining. I was told by my guide that I could call upon the Spiritual Windshield Wiper Guide to clear things up for me when I was having trouble seeing clearly. Sounds funny doesn't it? My Guides just talk to me in parables that I will understand. They told me a long time ago they didn't really care what names I called them.

I think the important thing to remember when you get a message from Spirit having to do with your life is that you are the deciding factor. It is your life. Those of us who hear from Spirit are actually connecting with your Guides who are with you all the time and have your best interests at heart. However, your Guides never cross your free will. You may choose to go in a different direction than your Guide anticipated and it changes the whole scenario. In the end you are the creator of your life story. I remember getting a reading before my husband and I got married and she told me that he was not the one. However, she also told me that my soul mate was close to me in my aura and I would be meeting him soon. Well at the time my husband and I were broken up. We eventually got back together and we have been happily married for seven years now. Did the woman get it wrong? I think she saw him in my aura. She just got the names wrong. What if I had listened to her and not taken my husband back? I would have missed out on some very happy years.

We have to realize that getting messages from Spirit through the many channels available is for guidance and inspiration. We can receive some much needed support and direction. I received the idea to write blogs and books from a clairvoyant medium. But it was my choice whether or not to follow the advice and exactly how to move forward with the direction she gave me. I just thought it worth mentioning that we are always in charge of our own lives. We can choose to go in one direction or another. Sometimes things happen that aren't exactly the way we expected.

In the case of my friend, I have another blog about what unconditional love really is and how it could not possibly be the love she was expecting.

Masks

With it being the month of October, and Halloween coming up, my thoughts are turned to masks. My guides seemed to be hinting around about masks the other day when I forgot to put on my makeup and didn't realize it until I got to work. Normally I do not leave the house without a little bit of help from manufactured beauty, but for some reason I must have gotten in a hurry and my face slipped my mind. When I got to work I remembered and unfortunately it was too late to go back home. I was mortified. Immediately my guides said to me, it is time to stop covering up who you are. I was a little stunned because I thought I was pretty bold for writing a book and letting the world know that I hear voices and I write down what they tell me. Ah yes, they seemed to say, but not to everybody. It is time to be yourself no matter who is around. Okay.

So there is one group of people to whom I do not tell my stories. I don't even tell them I have written a book, although I guess it is only a matter of time until they found out. But, you have to understand. I used to get messages. And then I spoke up and gave the messages. And then my world turned upside down. And some of these people are still my friends. And when I am around them I am friendly. And we talk about the weather, our husbands, our yards, our children. I try to stay away from anything controversial. Am I wearing a mask?

So later on in the day I see one of these friends. And we talk a little. She asks me what I have been up to. Hmmm... I am remembering what my guides told me this morning. So I tell her I have written a book and that I blog a couple of times a week. And she asks what the subject is. And I say, oh, well, I write about my perspective on things that I experience. And messages. Messages from whom? What should I say?

To tell you the truth, I really don't remember exactly what I said. At this point I think that I can be myself and that we can have different views that we don't necessarily have to talk about. The problem was with me. I have been afraid to be myself around those who may not share my viewpoint. Why? I think it is not because I am afraid of having to defend my viewpoint. I don't really see the value in that. I believe each of us has our own viewpoint, and if it is different, I am completely okay with that. I believe that as long as our motivation is love, what does it matter what gets us to that place?

I believe that our Guides are always around to inspire us if we are open to their messages. They don't really care what names we call them. I get messages now that come from the same place as I got them all those many years ago. The key is to remember that they will always make us feel good. They will always inspire us to raise up to a higher vibration, and never a lower one. The fear I have of exposing my new belief system to my old friends is just a mask I wear. I am not sure what I am afraid of.

I am sure I will be writing more about masks because I am not completely sure I have taken my mask off completely yet. There are still things I don't know about myself. But I am sure of this. I am okay with who I am.

Just for today, pay attention to the masks you wear. Are you one person with one group of people and someone else depending who is around? Who is the person inside of your skin?

10-10-10

I've been hearing and reading a lot about the energy of today, October 10,2010. I am not an expert in numerology, but I know the basic energy of the numbers. One is a number of beginnings. I believe that symbols only have meaning that we attach to them, as I have written about before. To one person the number one could mean that they are alone, while someone else may feel that it is a number encouraging them to try something new. In thinking about new beginnings, we have to consider that in order for there to be a beginning, there also has to be an ending of some kind. This morning while I was outside enjoying my morning run, I contemplated what I wanted today to hold for me, or what my Guides and Angels wanted me to focus on.

Yesterday on my run I noticed a couple of crows, which often follow me while I am outside running, only this time when I approached they both took off in flight away from me. I immediately got the message that the crows were no longer going to be my Spirit Guides. I was very sad but bid them farewell. They assured me that they would stop in periodically, but I would soon be introduced to a new power animal. There was my ending. So this morning I thought while I was running that I would contact the Other Side and try to connect with my new animal guide. Nothing. Then my Shaman Guide came to me and reminded me that yes, today is 10-10-10, but there are as many zeros in that combination of numbers as there are ones. Zero is a number of emptiness, of nothing. It is also a number of wholeness, since it has no beginning and no end. My Shaman Guide let me know that I had to experience nothingness before I could start something new. He also told me that my Spirit Animal had to choose me, that I could not choose it.

Now I know that not everyone who reads my blog connects with their Spirit Animals, so what does this mean for you? The message that I got this morning that the energy that many of us are experiencing now is the energy of newness. Many times we try to fill our lives with new things before ridding ourselves of the old. There has to be a period of time where we experience the nothingness of the in between the old and the new. It is only an empty cup that can be filled up with something new. If our cups are already full, our Guides can't fill us up with new stuff. I was talking to a friend who had recently went through a divorce and she said her friends were encouraging her to consider marrying again, and she said that she was just enjoying finding out who she was, without any input from someone else telling her who she was and what she liked. One day she realized she didn't even know what kind of shoes she liked because she had always just worn hand me downs. That is what I am talking about. There is a place of nothingness, where your soul has been emptied of all things that are no longer valid in your current experience, and the new has not happened yet. It is that place between the in breath and the out breath. That is the energy of today. It may last for a moment, like when you breathe out, and just for a moment there is nothing, and then the in breath fills you back up again. Or it may last a little more than a moment. But it is the necessary pause between what is past and what is coming.

And what is coming? You decide.

Messages from Nature

In my previous blog I talked about getting messages from our Guides and Angels through the avenue of numbers. Today I want to talk about how we can pay attention to our surroundings and get guidance for our lives.

I live in a house in a neighborhood but I am blessed with having an amazing back yard. I have eleven trees and and a small pond which I built myself. It is my little piece of heaven. My favorite thing to do is to sit outside on my patio by my pond and just pay attention to nature. I have received so much good advice from my Guides and Angels just through observation of nature. When I am worried or upset, I often sit at the base of one of my huge trees and just place my back up against its trunk. I imagine that my energy and the energy of the tree are one. I imagine all the "stuff" that this tree has observed and all the energy it has absorbed. I imagine any unhealthy energy from my emotions or that I have unknowingly taken upon myself to be energetically transferred to the tree and that the tree uses that energy and sends it into the ground as fertilizer. I am not worried that I am transferring to the tree energy that is unhealthy for the tree. It is only unhealthy for me. The energy of the tree is different from mine. It uses the energy that I discard for its own benefit. It is strong and solid and is the home for many species of wildlife. I imagine that my tree finds much satisfaction in housing and mothering so many forms of life. I feel the love from the energy of the tree transferring into my energy field. I am always rejuvenated after spending time at the base of one of my trees.

But what about messages? Often I will observe what is happening in my backyard and find many lessons that teach me about my life at that particular time. If there are lots of birds building nests or looking for worms then I will know that it is time to spruce up the house, do some cleaning, get my home ready. If there are squirrels that are playing around with each other, I will take the lesson that perhaps I need to socialize more. If they seem to be fighting with each other, then I will watch my attitudes towards others and perhaps keep an eye out for disagreements. Recently I noticed that my fish were not feeding much on the algae that had built up a little in the pond so I realized I needed to feed them less fish food so that they would be forced to eat some of the algae. This related to my tendency to perhaps rescue others who actually need to fend for themselves a little. Whenever I hear a crow calling out to me I know that there are messages coming to me. Sometimes the number of crows or the number of times they cawk is also significant. Once I was out for a run and I noticed a crow calling out to me from a particular house. I felt impressed to send healing energy to the people who lived in that house. I seemed to see energetically a woman in the house who was ill.

With the change of the seasons upon us, I have been noticing that the activity in my backyard has changed as well. The squirrel activity has increased, and I am thinking that perhaps it is time to store a little away for the future. Today I noticed that there was absolutely no activity at all. No birds, no squirrels, unnaturally quiet. I took this as a sign that maybe I needed a little quiet time.

The key to getting messages from nature is not to observe only what is happening. Something is always happening. The key is to notice what you notice is happening. Your observation of what is happening is what the Angels are showing you to give you a message. There may be birds and squirrels all over the place and you may not pay attention to them at all but when you do, notice what you notice about what they are doing. I love to watch the squirrels play but my neighbor is always shooing them away. The squirrels seem to get on her porch and knock over her knickknacks or leave nuts on her furniture. She is noticing the disarray and the fact that her world has been interfered with. This may be a sign that she has some irritations around her, be it people or maybe something within herself. The squirrels have never messed with my stuff that I have outside. They may occasionally plant a nut in my hanging basket, knocking the dirt out of the pot and onto the ground, but this is not an irritation to me. To someone else it might be. Notice the feeling you get from things you observe. This may be a key in receiving a message from nature.

Last year the bees were an irritation to me. They had built nests all over my yard, and I found it difficult to pull weeds or do basic yard work due to the fact that they had intruded on my territory. This year I have had no such experiences. What was the lesson the bees had for me? They gave me quite a few lessons which I covered in blogs and chapters in my book, but I think I was learning about the blessing of just "being", not doing so much all the time. They prevented me from "doing" all the stuff I thought I needed to do, and I had to accept the fact that we all have to live on the earth together in harmony. This year I have learned to live in peace with the bees, and they with me.

We can make life on earth a chore or an adventure. We can find messages in all the little nooks and crannies of our day to day lives or we can miss all the great lessons that are out there, just waiting to be discovered. Let's open our eyes and find miracles awaiting our observation.

Numbers

A lot of people want to know how to hear the voice of their Angels and Guides or how to receive guidance or direction in their every day lives. It is a lot simpler than you may think. There are many tools available for learning how to receive a message from the Higher Realms. However, many times all we have to do is look around us.

Today I am going to touch on how numbers can be a sign from our Angels. In future blogs, I will give examples of many other signs and symbols that are messages from our Guides or even from our loved ones who may have crossed over and are sending us comfort or guidance from the other side.

Everyone will have symbols or signs that are meaningful to them. I love the number 8. Before I studied numerology I used to see the number 8 and to me it was a number of new beginnings. In my mind there were seven days in a week and the number 8 represented to me the beginning of a new week. When I would see an 8 I would know it was a message that a new week was just over the horizon. Now that I have studied a little bit of numerology I have learned that 8 is the number of money and harvest and prosperity. That is good too. But my Angels like to send me signs that they are around and that all is well by sending me that particular number. I will see it repeatedly in a short period of time and I will know that all is well. They seem to send it to me during times when I am questioning whether I have done the right thing or not. Just recently I was questioning my decision to publish my book due to the fact that I had seen no sales in a couple of weeks and wondering if it was worth the expense and within a day or two I began to see the number 8 everywhere. I was reassured that I was fulfilling part of my purpose and that it would all be okay. As you can see, what may say one thing to me may say something completely different to someone else. What if someone had a loved one who died on the 8th day of the month? Maybe to them when they see an 8 they will think of that person. Maybe to them seeing an 8 is a sign that the person who they love is okay on the other side. On another note, my husband once had a particular serious health issue that manifested on the 8th day of April, and then he questioned my love for the number 8. He said, see not everything that happens on the 8th of the month is good. To which my reply would be, I still have you. The fact that it happened on an 8 day assured me that you would be okay.

Recently I began to wake up in the middle of the night and when I would look at the clock, it would say 3:33. Then I would wake up again and the clock would say 5:55. Then I started seeing the same numbers during the day. Maybe on the clock or the odometer on my car, or the page number of a book I was reading, or the number of words on a particular blog I was writing. I learned from doing some research that 333 was the number of the Ascended Masters and 555 was the number of a gigantic change. So the message to me was that even though tremendous change was on the horizon, the Ascended Masters are with me. Other circles say that 3 is the number for creativity, fun, and manifesting your dreams. Either answer is a good one. Lately I have been writing a lot and my book was just published two months ago which is a manifestation of a dream, but I also like the thought that the Ascended Masters are with me. I think if we find numerous opinions on the symbolism of a particular number or sign, then we have to take the one that resonates inside of us.

This week, pay attention to which numbers you see repeatedly. Ask your Guides what the number means to you. Just because numerology says it means one thing does not mean that it means the same thing for you. You may find an answer to a question you have been asking yourself. You may find reassurance that a loved one is near. The key is that you have to decide what it means to you. Know that your Angels and Guides are near and they know you very well. They will only give you signs that you understand. Just knowing this is a big help...

So What is In Store for Us?

With the start of the new month of October I have been reading what others have been predicting for the month. I read about the Venus retrograde, which starts on October 8th and goes through much of the month of October and November. I am not an astrologist but they say that this will highlight relationships for the most part. Then I was reading what some of those who "channel" messages from the Higher Realms are saying and some say that this month is another extension of September which seemed to be very difficult for a lot of people for one reason or another. Then some said that we are in for a change and that things would be much better. It seemed to me that everyone was saying something different this time. Who to believe?

For anyone who studies numerology October is a 1 month, which means that it is a month of new beginnings. However, in conjunction with all the other numbers that surround it, such as the year and the day and other factors, it could vibrate completely differently for some than others.

I was meditating on what October holds for me personally, and which one of the articles to believe, and I guess what my Guides seem to be telling me is that no matter what the planets do or the numbers do, every day is my decision. Yes there are energies and vibrations out there that make some days easier than others. Studying the numbers and the planets are beneficial in discovering things that maybe I need to confront. Knowing that the Angels are out there and that the Higher Realms are "upgrading" our systems is helpful when I am feeling a little out of sorts. When I am not sleeping it is encouraging to know that maybe the Higher Powers are just working on my transmitters. I know that there are a lot of things I can't see. The Bible even says that we "see through a glass darkly." I think that means that we only see things partially the way they really are. We see things from our own perspective, and each of us has a different perspective. I remember from my church days a preacher saying one time if he hears someone preaching about the Lord is coming soon, I mean really soon, he often would observe that person died soon after. This would indicate that sometimes we hear messages that are personally for ourselves and those of us who often hear from the Higher Realms might mistake this for a universal message and not just a personal one.

So what am I trying to say? I am saying that I although I am the first one to read all the predictions for this month, I think that we all need to hear for ourselves. Yes, Venus might be in retrograde and maybe that might make things a little more difficult, but what am I going to decide to do to make my days better? What do I hear the Angels saying and is what I am hearing the same or different than what I am reading from others?

What I hear from my Angels and Guides is that every day is my decision. No matter whether I am having a good day or a bad one, my attitude and my perspective is the most important thing. Maybe I am going through some changes that are difficult,or maybe things are wonderful, but how I choose to react to those things that are happening to me is what will make my life flow smoothly or not. I can choose my attitude. I can choose to go with the flow or against it.

I was watching the news about all of the lawsuits and complaints in conjunction with the oil spill in the gulf, and although I sympathize with those who have lost their livelihoods, living in the idea that something or someone else is responsible for whether my life is working or not is a fallacy. I am always responsible for my own life and making it work. If the Post Office closes tomorrow, then I will go look for another job. I will not sue the Post Office for changing my lifestyle. I will wake up smiling and I will expect the best. I will live in anticipation of the next adventure. The saying goes, when one door closes, another one opens, but often we spend so much time crying over the closed door, that we miss the one that has opened up for us. What are we focusing on? The closed door or the open one? The Venus retrograde or the opportunity to improve our relationships? The loss of one job or the opportunity for the next adventure?

I guess the key is our decision to take responsibility for our own lives or the easy way out, to blame our problems on something or someone else. I spent the early part of my life blaming all my problems on the Devil, then I see now that I walk in different circles that some like to blame the planets or the numbers or the oil companies or the President. There is always someone to blame. Or there is the best way, to pick ourselves up by our bootstraps and move forward. That is what I have decided. I am moving forward. And I am going to enjoy the journey.