Thursday, May 31, 2012

The Blank Page

I have been getting a recurring message from the Angels the last few days that I know is for me but I thought it worth sharing because I am sure there are those out there who have dreams and goals that have not yet been realized and sometimes it is easy to get discouraged when those dreams seem to take their sweet time coming to pass. Also there are others who delay starting their dreams or goals because they want to make sure that what they are thinking of doing is in their highest path and they are waiting for some sort of sign to begin.

I am one of those who love to get signs from the Higher Realms telling me I am on the right path. Sometimes I make my affirmations somewhat vague in case the Angels have something else in mind for me or the things I desire to do are not in my best and highest plan. Recently I was a little early for work and I was sitting in my car waiting to go inside and I decided to play my little game with the Angels I like to play. I like to pick up a random book and open up and whatever page falls open and whatever paragraph my eyes fall upon is my message from the Angels. I have to trust the Angels to direct my focus to something in particular and I have to sometimes interpret what I happen to open up to.

This particular morning I tried three times and I kept opening up to a blank page. After the third try it occurred to me that the blank page was the message.

The Angels told me, "Your life is a blank page in a book. You are the writer. Stop waiting for us. We enjoy helping you but we are not going to tell you what to do. We will be glad to help you in whatever you decide. We nudge you toward a certain path. But that path was installed inside of your soul before you were even born so the thing you are meant to do is what your heart cries to do anyway."

In other words, if you are in the habit of seeking guidance from a spiritual adviser who tells you that the Higher Powers are giving you orders or telling you what kind of house to buy or what kind of car to drive, think again. Your perfect job, your perfect house, your perfect mate, is out there. Heaven and earth will move to bring you to what is meant for you. But They will never give you a direct order. I heard a "prophet" one time say that God told him if he did not give a message to a particular person that He (God) was going to kill him. No I don't think so. Now God may have really wanted that person to get the message and maybe that was the only way he could get the guy to give the message but I don't think the guy would have died had he decided not to give the message. God would have just found someone else to give the message. What does this mean for you? Yes, the Angels want you to have all the things you want. But the book is blank. You are the writer. You get to decide. God and the Angels are not going to do it for you. They are not going to tell you what to do. They may inspire you, They will certainly help you, but They are not going to tell you what to do. You get to decide.

So I wrote this message down in my journal and went about my day. A few days later I was listening to a teaching on manifesting and this particular teacher said that the first step in manifesting is being specific in what you decide you want. (Yes I already knew that) No, don't wait for the Angels tell you.. now is the time to begin. You decide. You say what you want and form that intention and send it like an arrow into the Universe. The message was reminded to me this morning when once again I got to work a little early and opened my journal and this page was the page it opened up to. The page about the blank page. And then immediately the song "Unwritten" by Natasha Bedingfield came on. This is a wonderful song about creating the life you dream of and there is a particular line in the song that  says "staring at the blank page before you...." This is the line that she happened to jump out at me as I contemplated my previous entry about the blank page. I would post the entirety of the words to this song because it is so profound but I am worried about copyrights and all that.

The gist of the message I am trying to portray is that your life is a blank page and you get to write on it all the things you want your life to be about. Don't allow your life to run you. The Angels told me that most people live their lives on default. They just flow along and allow life to happen to them instead of directing the course of their lives and writing their lives themselves on that blank page before them. 

Don't worry. The Angels won't mind if you change directions mid course after you start on a particular path. They would rather you just start on a path. Course correction is allowed. Just do something.

I will end this message with a saying that has been on my wall for years. My husband picked it out and it is one of his favorites. It is a quote by Bruce Lee.. it goes like this..

It is not enough to know.. one must also apply.

Stop spinning your wheels and make your dreams a reality. Do something every day to move one step toward your goal. Or maybe you just need to decide what your goal is. In any event, let's get busy.

Monday, May 28, 2012

Message From a Movie.......

I mentioned in past blogs that I used to frequently get messages from movies. I guess the reason this doesn't happen as much as it did years ago is because I don't see movies as much anymore. But this weekend my husband wanted to experience a 3D movie so we decided to go see Men In Black 3. Now I will admit that I probably wouldn't have gone to see this movie on my own but he did take me to see Johnny Depp a couple of weeks ago so I kind of owed him one.

Anyway it was a delightful movie to my surprise although we were not really impressed with the 3D effects. And it was not without some spiritual insights, although the average person attending the movie may have missed the two messages that screamed out to me.

The first message (if you would call it that) is the concept of time. The Angels have long told me that time does not exist except in our world and that all of our lifetimes actually exist simultaneously and not necessarily one right after the other. This is a hard concept for me to realize and so normally I let it alone. I do remember one time going to a client's house where her son was about nine I think and was seeing a small boy coming and going and he frequently hid under the boy's bed and played pranks on him and frequently irritated the boy. The woman had called me to find out who the little boy was and what she could do to ease her son's experience of him. When I tuned in to Spirit I was told that the little boy was in fact the same little boy in an alternate lifetime who was bleeding through into this one. That was a little to deep for me.  I didn't understand how this could be possible. But I related what I was hearing and I connected with the little boy and sent him back to his own lifetime. From that time forward the boy never saw the other little boy or sensed his presence.

But I digress. In the movie there is a man who has invented time travel and frequently in the movie is relating alternate endings to the same event. I have watched documentaries in which this theory is explained how it could actually be possible and in my shamanic work in which I enter alternate states of reality to recover lost pieces of clients souls I have come across this possibility. My Guides have told me that when I am able to recover lost pieces of souls that sometimes are stuck in other lifetimes that both lifetimes are affected. Those who work in hypnosis and other fields of the mind will also agree that this sometimes occurs. I have also come across this in doing reiki for clients. I will come across an attachment of some sort and find that it has attached in some other dimension of time that I do not understand. My Guides tell me that when I am able to change the memory of an event the person's whole life experience will change. This may give you the reader an idea of what things might happen in a session. I never know what the Guides may direct me to do but it seems to change everything. Of course it is always up to the receiver of the healing to internalize the healing and move on from that point.

The other message I got from the movie is one sentence this time traveler said. He said.. "Wherever you make the choice of death, then death is always the result." I may not have quoted it exactly how he said it but essentially one of the main characters had gone back in time to kill an enemy in which he had only wounded and incarcerated the first time around. What the time traveler was saying was that there are always consequences to every choice a person makes. If you carry around with you the energy of death, then death will be the result. This makes perfect sense to me. What if you are always angry? You will always run into angry people. What if you are always fearful? You will run right into whatever it is you are afraid of. That is why it is so important to be mindful of your energy. Always be loving, always be compassionate. Every action has an equal and opposite reaction. If you wonder why your life is in the gutter, look at your past actions, reactions, thoughts, attitudes.

The good news is that you can join these two messages together and change the way your future unfolds just by changing your energy. Change the energy of hatred into love and love will be the result. Take a moment and go back into your past and forgive those who have wounded you.  Love those who you have hated. All of the energy of the Universe will change for you when you are able to heal old wounds and send love into the past.

If you need help with this I am always available via my website. You do not have to come to me physically. I have been able to do journeys and recover lost pieces of souls and do this long distance. The non physical world does not understand location and distance. In the meantime, live a life of love.

Thursday, May 24, 2012

Message From A Friend's Mom

Sometimes messages come to me when I am not in a good place for delivering them. Yesterday morning I was at the Post Office working when a friend came in whose mother had recently passed. This friend, like myself, is a bit used to getting visitors that are no longer in body. She, however, was a bit disconcerted because, although she frequently received visits from the other side, her mother, who had passed, had not come to her. She came to me to ask if I could tune in to see if her mom was okay. Immediately I got that rush through my heart chakra that lets me know that someone not in body is in my energy field. I knew it was her mom. But I was at work. I had customers. I told her that I would email her.

A few minutes passed and the familiar feeling of energy around me had not dissipated. I was relieved of my place at the front counter and it just so happened that my friend was still out in the lobby. I was able to go out and tell her a message from her mom, which she was happy to hear.

I remembered my conversation on Sunday with the higher realms. While driving I had made a declaration to the Higher Realms that I wanted to be of service, whether at work or at home or at the grocery store. Sure, I would like to spend my time getting messages and delivering them, but doing this full time was not in the budget and living in the physical world required that I get up and go to work every day. My efforts to generate income doing other than postal work so far has not panned out, so, I said to the Angels, you are just going to have to bring them to me. And They did.

I remember that Jesus was a carpenter and Paul was a tentmaker. Our purpose in life does not always generate enough money so that we can do these things full time like we would like. Living on the earth realm requires that we get up and go to work. It requires that we sometimes spend many hours doing things that do not necessarily make the world a better place or lift the vibration of the planet or even bring healing or love to others. But I am of the belief that sometimes I do not have to do spiritual things to be of service. Maybe I can just be the light. Maybe I can silently send out love and healing energy to whomever might need it who comes through my line at the Post Office. Sometimes I may not feel like my presence is making any difference, but who knows what someone who walks up to my counter may need that day.

If Spirit comes to me with that rush that tells me that there is a message for someone, I am going to do my best to deliver the message without getting fired from my job. When I am not working then I am happy to bring healing energy or messages to those who come to me from their loved ones or their Angels. It seems to me in the past couple of days since the eclipse that my sensitivity has increased. But my Angels told me I have to do what I have already been told to do before they will tell me anything more.

The one thing I have been told to do that I have not yet initiated is that I have been told to have a class once a month at my home for those who want to learn spiritual principles. I will be posting more information on these classes soon. I hope to start in June or July. Check out my facebook page and my website for information.

If you want to be of service to the Universe but are struggling with juggling making a living and being of service, take heart. It does not have to be one thing or the other. We can be spiritual beings and still live in a physical world. If we only made our livings doing spiritual things, then we would not necessarily come in contact with those who really need us. We have to work regular jobs. That is where we are needed.

Thank you

The other day I told you that I had gotten three messages while on the elliptical machine. Here is the third with a little help from Alanis Morrissette, who says what I try to say in my blogs only she says it better and with music. The third message I got was that our trials and tribulations and the hard times that we go through make us stronger. We should thank the trying times for the blessings that they give us. They give us perseverance. They give us compassion for others going through the same things. They give us roots.  I have this baby plant that I have been trying to get to grow for about a year now. It stays small and never gets much bigger. I have it by the window and I water it a little bit every day. One day I decided to move it to a different window. It was a window I don't walk by much so I started forgetting to water it. One day I walked by and it had gotten bigger!! All that mothering was not good for it. This particular plant needed dry soil evidently. It is the same with our souls. Sometimes the Angels let us alone for awhile so we have to learn to be strong on our own.

I had mentioned that recently I had felt a little out of sorts and the messages weren't making it from my experience with them to the paper. By the time I had the time to sit and write the messages were gone. I was wondering if I had lost my mojo. The little plant reminded me that sometimes we just need to experience loss so that we can experience joy once again. Loss is different for everyone. For me it was the loss of my feeling of purpose. I contemplated just getting up, going to work, and forgetting the rest of the stuff I do. Then one day I had someone say thank you for the message I gave them and it made it all worthwhile.

If you are experiencing loss or a questioning of your purpose, take heart. Thank the hard times for the lessons they give us. Here are the words of my theme song for the moment. Thank you Alanis Morrissette for putting my thoughts to music and so much better than I could....

"Thank U"

how bout getting off these antibiotics
how bout stopping eating when I'm full up
how bout them transparent dangling carrots
how bout that ever elusive kudo

thank you india
thank you terror
thank you disillusionment
thank you frailty
thank you consequence
thank you thank you silence

how bout me not blaming you for everything
how bout me enjoying the moment for once
how bout how good it feels to finally forgive you
how bout grieving it all one at a time

the moment I let go of it was the moment
I got more than I could handle
the moment I jumped off of it
was the moment I touched down

how bout no longer being masochistic
how bout remembering your divinity
how bout unabashedly bawling your eyes out
how bout not equating death with stopping

thank you india
thank you providence
thank you disillusionment
thank you nothingness
thank you clarity
thank you thank you silence

Tuesday, May 22, 2012

Personal Message

Here is a message I received while on the ellipical machine yesterday. I actually got three messages but I didn't want to post them all at the same time so I am posting this one today and hopefully the third tomorrow.

The Angels reminded me of the story of King David in the Bible. He was king and had everything he could want or desire. And then he saw Bathsheba. And he wanted her. Then he had her husband killed so that he could have her. And then his world fell apart. Bathsheba got pregnant, and the baby fell sick and ended up dying. And David cried and mourned and repented before God but the child still died. When the child died, David got up, and went on about his life.

The message I got was that there was someone who reads my blogs who has had a wonderful life. And then he made a mistake. One that he had paid for. But he is still living with the guilt of his mistake. In the process he is self sabotaging his life. The message that I got was that we are our own worst judges. God is not up in heaven judging us for our every sin. Yes there are things that we do that we should not have done, and yes, karma happens and we end up paying for our mistakes. Others are affected. But realize that you can find peace and move on. Some things cannot be undone. Just like David could not go back and bring Bathsheba's husband back from the dead, in the same way some things that we do have eternal consequences. But the thing that brings us back to our center is that we admit our mistakes and move on. Don't continually try to cover up the mistake. Admit it and then accept your consequences. And after you have lived through whatever consequences have occurred from the indiscretion, get up and move on with your life.

The only other thing I can add is that sometimes some things are better left unsaid. I have been in situations where people have admitted things to me that I would rather have not known. It may have made that person feel better to have come clean and told me something that I did not know, but it made me feel really bad and I could have lived happily not ever knowing that thing that they told me. Before you reveal a secret, think about how it is going to affect the other person. Is it going to make them feel better or worse? Is it going to bring about a healing or just create a wound? Is it just going to ease your conscience but there is not going to be any other benefit? I am not one who believes that telling the truth is always the best course of action. Sometimes it is more loving to keep things to yourself that are not going to benefit the other person. Yes, get rid of the guilt. Repent to the Universe. Do some sort of ritual to rid yourself of the guilt. But then move on.

Remember that God does not hold our sins against us forever, but we do. We end up sometimes sabatoging ourselves and creating many subconscious circumstances in our lives that could be avoided if we could just forgive ourselves and get up and move on.

It is time for us to move on to the next level. Forgive ourselves and forgive those who are in our lives. Make amends for our mistakes and then move on. Do not live our lives in guilt and shame. And do not rejoice when those who have hurt us seem to reap the consequences of their actions. We are all in the same boat. All of us have done things to hurt others, whether intentionally or non intentionally. It is time to heal and move on to the next thing.

No one is immune to making a mistake. Let us love ourselves and others enough to know this and then to forgive.

Monday, May 21, 2012

Solar Eclipse

Some of you may have noticed that May has been a quiet month for me. I wouldn't say that the Angels have been completely silent but the messages that have come have not seem to been able to make it to written form. I am not sure completely of the reason. I have read that the recent solar eclipse may have been a sort of spiritual experience and that those of us who are here to bring love and light to the planet may have been experiencing a sort of electrical upgrade, so to speak. You know how your smart phone or your computer acts sometimes if you do not periodically reboot it? Just in the same way sometimes our bodies, minds, and spirits need a reboot. The symptoms named for this spiritual reboot process was excessive fatigue, feeling out of sorts, foggy, sleeplessness or perhaps needing to sleep more than usual, and muscle soreness. I don't always buy into all the things I read, but this one seemed to have syncronized with some of the things I had been feeling. I was blaming it on my age and peri- menopause, but after doing some self reiki, and some meditations, I did feel somewhat better.

After sharing this with a couple of friends, it occurred to me that not every one had read the things I had read about the eclipse, so I thought it may be worth sharing. If you have been feeling the before mentioned symptoms, take heart. Maybe your personal wiring is just in need of a reboot. What to do? Just rest. It will pass. If it doesn't, then I am not telling you to not seek medical advice. Self reiki has seemed to do the trick for me, so if you are in need of a reiki session, do not hesitate to contact myself or a reiki practitioner near you for some healing energy.

In the meantime, take advantage of the new moon and solar eclipse energy. It's affects are supposed to be favorable for manifesting your desires in a greater way for the next day or two, so if you are in the habit of doing ritual or praying to your Higher Power, now is the time to put out those intentions!! In the circles of those who access the power of the stars and planets, the new moon is the time to set intentions and the full moon is the time to release those things you no longer need. Light a candle or whatever brings you to your spiritual place, and say out loud those intentions!! The power of the universe is there to help.

I was driving home yesterday from an event with friends and was contemplating what I wanted to create.  It occurred to me that the only real thing I want is to be of service to the Higher Realms and to the planet. I have gone through the times when I wanted to create a job, or a relationship, or money, or those types of things and now I am in the place where I am comfortable in those areas. All I want is to be of service. Yes, I would like to come to the place where I did not have to juggle my job at the Post Office with my spiritual work, but for now I am okay with that. I just want a clearer connection and more ways to serve. I do know that just sending love to the planet, to every flower, every bird, every blade of grass is being of service. There are things we all can do. We can recycle, we can conserve energy, we can complain less and be more thankful, we can be kind. We can stop fighting with one another and learn to be more accepting of those who are not like us. These are things I can do and we all can do.

Whether or not the solar eclipse really has ushered in a greater energy from the Higher Realms for us to manifest our greatest desires or upgrade our bodies to handle a higher frequency is not important. What is important is whether or not you personally believe that this is a possibility and what you do with the information. If it is true, then light a candle, say a prayer to the Higher Realms, and then go put feet to your prayers. If it is not true, then do the same. What we do with our lives is ultimately the most important thing. Be kind. Do no harm. Love your neighbor. The rest is just incidental.


Tuesday, May 15, 2012

Two Plus Two Equals Four......or Does It?

Yesterday morning I was reading a bit from a book called Essential Reiki by Diane Stein. She was giving a bit of the history of Reiki and there was a bit about Buddhism, and one particular message jumped out at me. That was the Buddhist principle of detachment. The Buddhists believe that the way to enlightenment is partially through the principle of detachment, otherwise called impermanence. It is the belief that suffering comes from being too attached to a particular outcome. We could say that if we are sick we are attached to the desire to be well. If we are poor we are attached to the idea of attaining money. If we are lonely we are attached to the idea of finding a lover. Through the principle of detachment, we find peace by detaching from the idea that our happiness lies in something outside of ourselves.

How does this principle not contradict the law of attraction? In the law of attraction, we have learned that the way to attract the things we desire into our lives we must create an energetic bond with that which we desire to attract into our lives. In the Buddhist principle of detachment, this almost seems that we should not have desires in the first place.

So I asked my Angels to explain to me how these two laws can peacefully coexist. How can I have a desire, feel the emotion of what I want to attract, say positive affirmations to attract it, raise my vibration so that I am in an energetic frequency to attract this desire, and then detach from the desire for a particular outcome? Is this possible? How can a person who is ill detach from the desired outcome of health?

My Angels said to me that I was operating under the assumption that 2 + 2 = 4. They said to me that when I am in grade school I am taught that 2 + 2 = 4. Now, they said to me, We want you to realize that this may not necessarily be the case. Black and white do not necessarily exist, They said. The properties of the two and the two may actually create a reality in which two plus two equals five.

My black and white mind does not understand this. But this is what they said to me. Many people have been disillusioned by the law of attraction because they desire something and they say affirmations and they visualize the outcome they desire but they forget that at some point they have to give up to the Universe or whatever they call their Higher Power for the manifestation of the highest plan for their lives. I do believe it is possible to attract things into our lives using the principles of the law of attraction, however I also believe that sometimes the things we attract into our lives do not end up making us happy. I think what the principle of detachment is saying is that in order to have true happiness, we need to detach from thinking that our lives can only go in the way that our finite minds think it has to. I have to be well, I have to be wealthy, or at least have a good paying job, I have to have a lover. Contentment truly comes when we find our happiness from that place within us that is connected to our Source, and all the other things come or do not come and it does not affect our peace. I found at one point in my life when I had absolutely nothing, that I was at my most peaceful. I knew at some point I would eventually get all the "stuff" back, but at that point in time I found contentment in living in an empty apartment with nothing but a mattress on the floor and a couple of chairs.

I guess what I am saying is that sometimes we create suffering for ourselves just by not being content with life the way we find it. We want so much more. We want this or that, and sometimes our wants are not bad things. But we are not happy until we create the life we think will fulfill us or make us happy.

I have felt like part of my purpose is to write down what the Angels tell me and post them in my blogs. If I don't get any messages for awhile or perhaps if my job gets in the way of my time in front of the computer, I feel like I am not fulfilling my purpose. Today the Angels told me to lighten up. Detach from what I think I am supposed to do. Realize the impermanence of all things. Detach from my desire for  a particular outcome.

Is there something that you want that has seemed to be just out of your reach? Maybe you just need to detach from a particular outcome and just go with the flow. Maybe the Universe has something better in mind. Realize that nothing is set in stone. What you thought was your purpose in life six months ago may not hold water now. Sometimes it is best to let life flow and not get too attached. 

Today think about what you have been trying to manifest in your life and then just think about letting go of the idea that it has to come in a particular way. Loosen your grip on making something happen. Let life flow the way it will and just find peace in the sound of the raindrops on your roof or the birds singing outside your window. See what happens when you just let go. This is what the Buddhists meant when they said that detachment is one of the keys to the end of suffering and the road to enlightenment.