Friday, March 9, 2012

Demons in the Closet

I think today my Angels want me to give a short message about embracing that which you most want to resist. I have had opportunity to help a few people this week who are going through challenges and what I noticed is our tendency to resist those challenges.  When we get sick we just want to get better. When we get ourselves into trouble we just want to get out of it. There comes a point in our lives when it is time to embrace those parts of ourselves which we most want to keep in the closet.

Is there something that you are going through which seems to come along frequently? You think you have conquered this particular demon and then all of a sudden, wham, there it is again?

 Maybe it is the tendency to attract a certain type of people into your life, like someone who treats you badly. You think you have learned the lesson and moved on. You meet someone new. You instantly are attracted to them. Time goes along and things seem to be good. Then .... something changes and you start noticing the same pattern. What happened?

Or maybe it is a sickness that keeps coming back. Or maybe it is a pattern of addiction. You may think you have conquered the demon. Years may go by. Then one day, you are having a bad day and you think.. oh.... one cigarette won't hurt, or one drink, one piece of cake, or one trip to the mall. And the old demon is back with a vengeance.

Today I want you to embrace that part of yourself which you are trying to whip into submission. Now I don't mean go out on a drinking binge or whatever your demon is. I want you to have a conversation with that part of yourself. Ask yourself, what are you trying to tell me? What is at the core of the issue? What is it I am trying to hide? What am I trying to cover up? Imagine yourself standing in front of a mirror and looking at that you that likes to eat chocolate cake or smoke or shoplift or drink or engage in toxic relationships. Look at that part of yourself with love and acceptance and tell yourself in the mirror that you love and accept yourself with all your flaws and with all your shortcomings. To steal from AA, the first step in overcoming an addiction is admitting that you have one.

I used to not like the AA tendency to say.. I am an alcoholic. I do believe that we are what we think we are and I have thought that it would be much more positive to say.. I am a lovable wonderful person. Yes this is true but first we have to admit who we are and what we are dealing with. Maybe not forever. But just for today say to yourself... I am...(fill in the blank) and I love myself anyway. Get that demon out of the closet. Embrace it. Just as in a previous blog I wrote about going back to my childhood fears and having a conversation with the snakes under my bed, do this for your demons. Have a conversation with that demon and express love to it for the lessons you have learned. When you embrace your demons they lose their power over you. When you have come to the place where you are at peace with that demon in the closet, then you can move on. You can start to get to the place where you can finish the sentence .." I am ".. with a much more positive affirmation.

Let's get started. There is so much good out there to experience. Don't let the bad stuff hold you back.

Wednesday, March 7, 2012


Channeling is when a person, like myself or someone else, allows their voice to be used by someone not in physical form to speak or give messages. There are basically two kinds of channels. One is someone who goes into trance and is completely unaware of what goes on or what is said while the nonphysical entity is using his or her body and voice.The other type of channel is someone who is basically a conduit for the non physical entity. This person allows their voice to be used to speak, but the person retains consciousness and control of their physical body. Theoretically the conscious channel can opt to regain use of their body at any time during a channeling session.

In the past I have allowed the use of my voice to spirits who have passed on from this lifetime to give messages to loved ones or to voice their emotions or experiences which may have kept them from crossing over when they first passed. By allowing a displaced spirit to have a voice, it is often possible to bring them to a place of acceptance and finally be ready to cross over to the next step in their path. It is also entirely possible that the non physical person with whom I am speaking may be just a part of a soul which was left behind due to trauma or some strong emotional event. I have witnessed a crossing over of a soul part in which the person had indeed already crossed, but there remained a piece of them, seemingly stuck in a house or even an item that had been in contact in some way with that person.

As you who read my blogs know, I also receive messages from Angels, Guides, and Ascended Masters, but until recently I had never gone into that deep place of meditation and allowed them to speak through me with my voice. It was an easy transition, since I had already received messages from Them, and because I had allowed my voice to be used by other non physical entities.

This time was a bit different because I allowed Spirit to use my voice to speak a message directly, instead of just hearing a message and then repeating what I heard. The one that came to me this time was the Goddess Diana. I recognized her because I had seen her before in my meditations, but this time I allowed her to speak through my voice. She spoke through me to give a message to the person with whom I had journeyed. Jesus was there, too, watching. Jesus has been coming to me often because he has asked me to write about my physical journey through this lifetime, and he has given me some messages to relate in my future book that will come out of the exchange.  I think he was also there to let me know it was safe to take this next step. I did not lose control of myself or lose awareness of what was happening, but it was an interesting exchange. No my voice did not change. It seemed that when I first started the connection was a bit like a radio station that is not quite in range but almost, but the more I spoke the clearer the connection became.

I am relating this new step in my journey because I am very sure that this was not the last time that I will be used by Spirit in this way. I am very sure that the messages are going to continue, but in this particular form I may have to have a recorder going while I am talking because I can't write while the interaction is occurring and I cannot remember all that was said.  Look for messages coming soon that are obtained in this way. I am excited to be used by Spirit in whatever way is best for the benefit of those with whom I am blessed to serve.

Monday, March 5, 2012

Childhood Nightmares and Monsters

Remember when you were a child and your mom had to check all the closets and under the bed for monsters before you would go to bed? Was I the only child who would take a running jump into the bed because I was sure there was a family of snakes under the bed? Did anyone else wake up several times in the night because of the terrifying dreams?

Recently my Guides led me to take a "journey" into the past and confront all those terrifying monsters. I have related in past blogs about how pieces of our souls get stuck in the nonphysical, spiritual realms when we experience trauma. I would describe those childhood fears as trauma. I frequently take non physical journeys for clients in my shamanic work, retrieving pieces of their souls from the places where they have fled during their lifetimes or perhaps previous lifetimes, but I had never done this type of work for myself. 

I enter into the nonphysical realms by practicing a form of meditation. In this case my guides led me to my old bedroom from childhood. It has long been known that fears are known to lose their power by the mere act of confrontation, and this was no exception.

As we lifted the bedskirt and looked under the bed, in the spirit I saw the family of snakes. Of course there were no actual physical snakes but their symbolic, spiritual counterparts did indeed reside there. I was accompanied by my child self, who had been terrified of them. I asked them in the spirit why they were there. The spirit of the snake told me that symbolically snakes represent healing, and they were there because I had been hiding my gift of healing under the bed since I was a child; in fact I had been hiding it for several lifetimes. In a previous lifetime apparently the gift had caused me a great deal of trouble, so I had hidden it in several subsequent lifetimes. In this lifetime the snakes appeared to hide under the bed because indeed, my healing gifts were hidden, under the bed, so to speak. I apologized to the snakes and the symbolism of healing for hiding from them and for being afraid of them, and asked that the gift of healing no longer be forced to hide.

In the meditation I also confronted other fears and the nightmares as well, which would take several blogs or perhaps chapters in an upcoming book to relate. The reason I tell this story is multifaceted. The first reason is to let those parents out there know that if your child is suffering from nightmares or unreasonable fears, know that their fears are real. Do not make fun of them or tell them that they are imagining things. As a child I was repeatedly scorned for these unreasonable fears and told that it was silly to believe that there were snakes under the bed. It might be helpful to take your child and address the fear. Just because you do not see any actual snakes does not mean that the spirit of the snake is not in fact under the bed. If you do not feel qualified to do this, I have in the past helped children deal with their fears and the spirits that they do actually feel and see.

The other reason for sharing this experience is that sometimes things that we have long forgotten will come up for healing. It is important to acknowledge those things that come up and address the issues that were long ago repressed or forgotten. Healing is a lifelong process. I have helped other people for several years now become reunited with lost pieces of themselves, but I had not addressed some of my own lost soul parts.

This is an example of one thing you might experience if you would become interested in a shamanic journey or a soul retrieval.  We all have lost pieces of ourselves, and in these days and times it is helpful to have all the pieces of our souls so that we can move forward and experience the best life that we can imagine. Best thoughts and feelings and prayers to all those hungry souls out there ready to experience the next step in their adventure called life.