Here is a message I received while on the ellipical machine yesterday. I actually got three messages but I didn't want to post them all at the same time so I am posting this one today and hopefully the third tomorrow.
The Angels reminded me of the story of King David in the Bible. He was king and had everything he could want or desire. And then he saw Bathsheba. And he wanted her. Then he had her husband killed so that he could have her. And then his world fell apart. Bathsheba got pregnant, and the baby fell sick and ended up dying. And David cried and mourned and repented before God but the child still died. When the child died, David got up, and went on about his life.
The message I got was that there was someone who reads my blogs who has had a wonderful life. And then he made a mistake. One that he had paid for. But he is still living with the guilt of his mistake. In the process he is self sabotaging his life. The message that I got was that we are our own worst judges. God is not up in heaven judging us for our every sin. Yes there are things that we do that we should not have done, and yes, karma happens and we end up paying for our mistakes. Others are affected. But realize that you can find peace and move on. Some things cannot be undone. Just like David could not go back and bring Bathsheba's husband back from the dead, in the same way some things that we do have eternal consequences. But the thing that brings us back to our center is that we admit our mistakes and move on. Don't continually try to cover up the mistake. Admit it and then accept your consequences. And after you have lived through whatever consequences have occurred from the indiscretion, get up and move on with your life.
The only other thing I can add is that sometimes some things are better left unsaid. I have been in situations where people have admitted things to me that I would rather have not known. It may have made that person feel better to have come clean and told me something that I did not know, but it made me feel really bad and I could have lived happily not ever knowing that thing that they told me. Before you reveal a secret, think about how it is going to affect the other person. Is it going to make them feel better or worse? Is it going to bring about a healing or just create a wound? Is it just going to ease your conscience but there is not going to be any other benefit? I am not one who believes that telling the truth is always the best course of action. Sometimes it is more loving to keep things to yourself that are not going to benefit the other person. Yes, get rid of the guilt. Repent to the Universe. Do some sort of ritual to rid yourself of the guilt. But then move on.
Remember that God does not hold our sins against us forever, but we do. We end up sometimes sabatoging ourselves and creating many subconscious circumstances in our lives that could be avoided if we could just forgive ourselves and get up and move on.
It is time for us to move on to the next level. Forgive ourselves and forgive those who are in our lives. Make amends for our mistakes and then move on. Do not live our lives in guilt and shame. And do not rejoice when those who have hurt us seem to reap the consequences of their actions. We are all in the same boat. All of us have done things to hurt others, whether intentionally or non intentionally. It is time to heal and move on to the next thing.
No one is immune to making a mistake. Let us love ourselves and others enough to know this and then to forgive.