Last night my husband and I were watching a movie called Crazy Heart. It was about a country music singer who had been big in times past but had fallen into alcoholism and had come to a point in his life where he was driving from town to town singing in bowling alleys and bars. One of the songs he was singing during the course of the movie had a line in it that caught my attention: falling feels like flying for awhile.
I am reminded of how easy it is to fall back in our journey through life before we even realize it. We may not be dealing with alcoholism, or we may, but we all have fatal flaws that we battle with day in and day out. We may feel we have conquered our demons and moved forward, and then one day we look up and we realize that we have fallen back and we don't even know how it happened. I am reminded of a verse in the Bible that says, even Satan can disguise himself as an Angel of Light. This to me means that sometimes the very things that we think are good and noble in our lives could turn out to be our demons.
It may start innocently enough. We have been exercising five days a week and we miss a day or two here and there. Then we find we are only exercising four days a week. Then we may miss a whole week. Before we know it we can't remember the last time we went to the gym. Or we may meditate or do our spiritual practice, whatever it is, every day, and then, our schedule changes. Something or someone comes into our lives and our spiritual practice suffers. One day we wake up and realize that we have not tuned in to the Higher Realms in quite some time. We have fallen off the path.
I am sure an alcoholic doesn't realize he is ruining his life when he takes that drink. Falling feels like flying for awhile. Skipping a day at the gym or skipping our spiritual group or what ever it is that makes your heart sing once or twice turn into a week, and then a month.
This morning I went outside for a run after a long cold winter of exercising inside or not at all. I have gained a couple of pounds and have been less than my normal cheery self. As soon as the breeze hit my face and the air filled my lungs I realized what I had been missing. The message I am sure my Angels are wanting me to spread is that it is time to wake up and get back on track!! Whatever your demons are, face them and move forward! Put the past in the past, forgive yourself for your shortcomings and the shortcomings of others, don't blame others for stealing your time, get up and do something!! Don't let life happen to you. Make your life what you want it to be. If you are falling, then realize you are falling and change direction.
The time for hibernation is over. Let us clean up the old dead stuff so the new can spring forth.